And Again

This time the dream was this:

I had a baby and her name was Lilly. But the baby looked just like Katrina (when she was a baby) and not like either of the Lilly's I know.

Also we were in my childhood home in the basement and there was something about trying to put one of my former daycare kiddo's down for a nap on top of a dresser.

Why are the babies girls? I want a baby boy first!

Good News!
My Hubby is off nights at work and tomorrow night (tuesday) we get to sleep in the same bed at the same time! I'm so psyched!!

Dreaming Still

My dreams enjoy torturing me.

Last night I dreamt (twice) that I had taken a home pregnancy test and it was positive. I don't remember the first dream, but the second one all I can remember is my parents reaction. They both gave me gigantic hugs and the hugs felt so good! I almost cried when I woke up and realized that those hugs had never happened. I wasn't upset that I woke up and wasn't pregnant, but that I had really felt those hugs. Weird.

Jason is working nights. I really hate it when he works nights. I feel so lonely with out him to talk to. That and the bed is too big.

I took my first at home pregnancy test (hence the dreams) and it was negative. I had a really weird period and I thought I might be pregnant. Probably though it was weird because of going to the hospital the stress and all that.

This month marks the first month of Jason and I "officially" trying to get pregnant. I really, really, really, really hope that I don't have to use drugs to get preggo and it will just happen!

All Done

BTW.

No more tummy problems. What ever it was is done! Praise God!

Argh

I know I'm not pregnant. I want to be, but I'm not.

I'm taking a test tomorrow.

I'll keep you posted.

Chinese Men?

I dreamt lastnight that I saw a Chinese man pregnant.

Frustrated

My body is playing tricks on me. I am supposed to be having my period. I did have a smudge on Tues and Weds and now nothing. Argh. Not even a spot. Now, as of Sunday I wasn't prego, they did a test and didn't say I was so I'm not. But it really messes with my head!

Another Baby

Just found out on Sunday that one of my friends is due in March! Ugh!

I really, really, really hope that Jason and I can announce that we are pregnant on Christmas. When we have a baby it will have a living great great grandmother, great grandmother, and grandmother all on the same side! How cool would that be? I know that we aren't going to get pregnant fast, but I still have a little bit of pessemistic hope.

We saw a set of infant twins at a restraunt on Monday. I smiled at Jason and he said, "No, no twins." Like either of us have a choice. Oh how I love him!

Dreaming Again

I really hope that my dreams are prophetic.

Last night I dreamt that Jason and I had a baby girl. She was all pink and scrunchy with black hair (must have been newborn). For some strange reason we were taking her to the movies. If I remember correctly I think Jason changed a diaper.

Delia Called the Dr and the Dr Said

I called the doc to see how on earth I got this gastric stuff and she said it was probably the fair food on Saturday. She also said I only have to take the malox concoction when I'm in pain and to take note of the foods that hurt. She also said that after two weeks/ten days to stop the pepcid and see how I am and if I'm fine then Yay! and if not then we'll go from there and find out what's up.

I am praying that it was just the fair food and that I'm fine.

Annoyed

I hate all my meds, but for the next 10 days I need them. Argh. This is my crazy med schedual.

• 6am Levox (thyroid)
• 715 Sucral (new med)
• 815 Eat
• 845 Pepcid (new med)
• 945 Lidocained (new med)
• 1030 Sucral
• 1130 Eat
• 1230 Metformin & vitamins (which are supposed to be eaten with food, but i can't because I have to wait 2 hrs after taking the Sucral so that they can be absorbed into my stomach, because the Sucral doesn't let much pass it as it coats the lining of my tummy!)
• 130pm Lidocaine (this really ought to be taken directly after a meal as it is a numbing agent-liquid form-and anti-acid, but again I can't because I have other pills I need to take!
• 530 Sucral
• 630 Eat
• 730 Metformin
• 800 Pepcid (which is too early but I don't want to wait too long before I take my pain killer....)
• 900 Lidocaine
• Bedtime cough meds (Yes I have a prescription for that too)

However, all my annoyances aside I am happy that there are meds out there to help. Ugh.

So this is what WebMD has to say about Gastritis, which is one of the options of what I have. I am calling my doctor today to find out how this happened...

• Digestive Diseases: Gastritis
  Gastritis is an inflammation, irritation or erosion of the lining of the stomach. It can occur suddenly (acute) or gradually (chronic).
  What Causes Gastritis?
  Gastritis can be caused by irritation due to excessive alcohol use, chronic vomiting, stress or the use of certain medications such as aspirin or other anti-inflammatory drugs. It may also be caused by any of the following:
  Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori): A bacteria that lives in the mucous lining of the stomach. Without treatment the infection can lead to ulcers, and in some people, stomach cancer.
  Pernicious anemia: A form of anemia that occurs when the stomach lacks a naturally occurring substance needed to properly absorb and digest vitamin B12.
  Bile reflux: A backflow of bile into the stomach from the bile tract (that connects to the liver and gallbladder).
  Infections caused by bacteria and viruses
  If gastritis is left untreated, it can lead to a severe loss in blood, or in some cases increase the risk of developing stomach cancer.

And here is what they say about Peptic Ulcers which is the other options.

• Peptic Ulcer Disease - Topic Overview
  
  
  What is a peptic ulcer?
  A peptic ulcer is a sore in the inner lining of the stomach or upper small intestine (duodenum). Ulcers develop when the intestine or stomach's protective layer is broken down. When this happens, digestive juices can damage the intestine or stomach tissue. These strong juices, which contain hydrochloric acid and an enzyme called pepsin, also can injure the esophagus. The esophagus is the tube that leads from your throat to your stomach.
  Peptic ulcers are no longer a condition that most people have to live with their entire lives. Treatment cures most ulcers, and symptoms go away quickly.
  Peptic ulcers that form in the stomach are called gastric ulcers. Those that form in the upper small intestine are called duodenal (say "doo-uh-DEE-nul" or "doo-AW-duh-nul") ulcers.

Stove

Here is our new Beautiful machine of warmth! My Dad put our pellet stove in on Friday when I told him that our apartment had gotten down to 60! Eek! The first night we used it we had to shut it off. The apartment was 81! Yikes! I am so excited to be warm all winter!