Moody

I've been feeling moody lately. Just a little up and down all with in the same moment.

I'm on day 38 of my cycle with no period in sight and I think that has something to do with it.

Ugh, What a Day

This blog contains the words: Poop & vomit. If such things are an offense to you, don't read.
*don't say I didn't warn you*

Izzy the dog has been sick. It started out with stinky gas, like really bad gas and I assumed (how silly of me) that that was where it would end. Then one night she farted while pooping and I heard it ooze to the ground. In the meantime Vinnie the dog has been hacking up mucus and grass (yes I know TMI you can skip this blog entry if you need to, I will understand). I thought (also wrongly) that it was nothing and would pass. *sigh* Last night as I was putting Vinnie to bed in his crate (a cat carrying thing) he wouldn't go in, he sort of sniffed and backed out. I got out the flashlight to take a peek and lo and behold he had vomited the night before in his bed. It was too late for me to clean it up so I threw the soiled stuff in the bathroom to clean in the morning.

Morning arrived. I got up to do my normal routine and clean up the vomit bedding so I could wash it. Not a big deal in the grand scheme of things, it didn't even smell all that bad. I went about my day until around 1pm when I realized I needed my knitting for while the kids slept. I came over to my apartment and was greeted by the worse poop smell on the planet.

Izzy walked up to me low to the ground, apologizing for her mistake. She had diarrhea on my floor. Not in the kitchen where it would be easy to clean. Oh, no, on my RUG! Have you ever tried to clean poop off a rug? How about liquid poop?

I almost threw up. Then, when I was at my mom's getting supplies I almost threw up over there and I couldn't even smell or see it! I told her, "I don't know what I will do when my kids are sick, I just can't handle the mess."

Back at my apartment I practiced the ancient art of breathing through my mouth in order to avoid a foul smell. I found that if I did not look directly at the mess, sort of saw it out of the corner of my eye, the gagging was a lot less.

I did the best I could with what I had, then ran to Wal-Mart to get the most expensive rug cleaner I could find. I also bought some strong candles to help, because even though the poop is gone, the stench remains.

Happy Sad Still

Jason's Aunt Judy isn't doing good. His mom suspects that Aunt Judy didn't tell us the full scope of her cancer and it is worse than his aunt is letting on. She was admitted into the hospital on Thursday because her white blood cell count was dangerously low, like she had 5-10% of the count that she is supposed to have. She's going home on Tuesday.

In the back of J and my minds is a happy sad thought that when Aunt Judy goes, we might be able to have a larger place at a small price. I feel so evil thinking this way. Not that I want her to die, I just feel so cramped in this tiny place.

I was watching "Top 10 Kitchens" on HGTV and there are people out there with kitchens BIGGER than my apartment (including my kitchen) that is just crazy.

Time Passes

I haven't jotted anything down in a while so I thought I might.

I "peed on a stick" recently. I'm at day 34 with no period in sight so on day 30 I did a pregnancy test and it was negative. I'm wondering how long, if at all, my period will take to kick start. I've been told it could take three months. *sigh* I'm going to be buying some OPK's soon to help me figure out if/when I ovulate.

Jason has been working nights and it has really put me in a funk. On Friday night I stayed up till 4am because sleep didn't seem appealing to me. The bed looked foreign and uncomfortable. He only has two nights left and I'm looking forward to going to bed with him on Tuesday night.

New Baby Count

Now we are at 7 Babies due between March & April!

Ovulating?

I might have ovulated. My temp spiked a whole degree! It didn't stay up like it is supposed to so we'll see.

Flea on Lee

Jason came with me to Boston (to work one of the last two times that I have to go down to pay off the car!!). It was so much fun having him there with me. We took the kids to the Museum of Science, we saw only the barest of fractions of the museum. The kids were cranky for several reasons: 1. They get up a 6am in the morning 2. I got "turned around" on the way there and it took close to an hour to get there instead of 1/2 an hour max (G fell asleep, lucky bum) 3. We got there late so the other two were tired and hungry 4. They were hungry 5. They were tired. We did have a good time. Jason says we can take our kids there too so the experience wasn't too bad for him. I asked him that after working the week-end with me if he felt more ready for parenthood. He answered with (and I'm paraphrasing): "Darling, I have never been nor will I ever be ready to be a parent, but I still want to be one." So I would say that he weathered the storm well. I don't have to go down again until the first part of December and then I will be done. I think that in the spring (as long as I'm not super preggo) I will go down again if she needs me. The money is good and easy to make.

As to the Flea on Lee. We saw signs in Boston that said "Flea on Lee". We didn't go but apparently it had already been here. I found a flea on Vinnie today, yuck. So that meant Front Line for everyone. $123 I think we're good! Sometimes it does not pay to have so many animals and to not buy stuff on-line. I have learned my lesson! I will be buying it on-line where it is a FRACTION of the price!

Good Feelings

I vacuumed, put away laundry, and did some dishes. I am feeling accomplished!

There is just nothing like not feeling like a slob.

No More Nightmares Please

Well, I'm headed off to bed. I hope tonight for a change I will have no nightmares and I will sleep like a coma patient, or maybe like a drunk man, or like someone who took an elephant tranquilizer, just as long as it is quiet happy sleeping!

Happy Sad

Jason just informed me this week that we may have an opportunity to buy a house in about a year (maybe less maybe more).

His great aunt is dying of cancer and she has not been given a good prognosis. She could have anywhere from 6months to a year. She does not have a formal will (I don't think) but she has told her power of attorney (Jason's Mom) that she wants Jason's Mom and Aunt to have the house to split the profit. However, they would sell it to us at what she owes on it.

It's a trailer with two additions, and from what I've been told a high end trailer (it has a good sized bathroom, tiled kitchen floors, and a fireplace in the living area) and one of the additions is a garage (perhaps two bays?).

Hopefully great aunt Judy has several years left in her and Jason and I will have to buy a house some place else. But if not this is going to be a good move for us. Not a final move to be certain, but a move up from 500 square feet!

Just For Fun

I was feeling a little bored and my sister-in-law had this on her facebook so I thought I'd fill it out. (there is 67 of them!)

1. 
   Have you ever gone out with a football player? ....no, unless you count soccer
2. Last person to make you smile? ....these kids in Uganda from a slideshow presentation at church
3. If you're sleeping and someone calls you what do you say? ....'ello? (in a really sleepy voice)
4. Ever receive a really long apology? ....I don't remember, but it is possible.
5. Who were you with at 12:00 last night? ....my hubby!
6. Feel like talking to someone that you haven't in a while? ....yes, my friend in Missori
7. Whats a food that you and your number one both love? .....I don't know. We like a lot of the same things so it's hard to narrow it down.
8. Expecting something to change in the next month? ....I am hoping!
9. Ready for winter to come? ....no, I'm never ready.
10. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? .....my shirt
11. Were you an honor roll student in school? yes
12. Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex?....my husband
13. How do you make your money? ....blood, sweat, and tears like everyone else (I work at a daycare)
14. What do you have planned for tonight?....eating, hanging with the hubby
15. If you could have anything right now what would it be? ....a baby in my tummy
16. Do you think you are an argumentative person? ....depends, is the Pope still catholic?
17. How' s your heart lately? ....ready,
18. Are you a forgiving person? ....forgive, yes. forget, no. I have a tendancy to hold grudges
19. How ticklish are you? .....in the right spot, very. I can decide to not be ticklish
20. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? warm, but only because I hate the cold
21. Are you a mean person? ....used to be
22. How is your hair? ....i hate it, I need to do something with it
23. Do you care if people hate you for no reason? ....yes
24. Who was the last person you were mad at? .....myself, I am my own worse enemy
25. Where is your cell phone? ....in my pocket
26. Do you miss anyone right now? ....always
27. Do you like to call or text? ....depends on who it is with
28. Where is your biological father at?.....working at Lowes
29. Is there a guy or girl that knows almost every thing or most everything about you? ....Jason knows everything about me, the close second would be my best girl Amy
30. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? ....of course
31. Have you told anybody you loved them today? ....yes
32. You have a tan line anywhere? ....(what kind of quesiton is this?) maybe
33. Are you better at math or art? ....in school when I went, math
34. Science or History? ....Science
35. Whats your favorite brand of gum? ....5 there is no other brand of gun
36. How old is the cell phone you have right now? ....less than a year
37. Do you know anyone named Tyler? ....yes
38. Can you do a hand stand? ....no
39. How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime? ....upwards of 7
40. Have you ever had a pet fish ? ....yes, it died. It froze to death
41. Whats on your wish list for your birthday? ....jewlery box, boxers (so I will stop wearing my hubby's to bed, they are wicked comfy!)
42. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? ....excited
43. Do you like surprises ? ....yes!
44. Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason? ....yes
45. How many kids do you want to have?....4. Hubby wants 3, so we are going to have 3 and then talk about the 4th!
46. What are your plans for tomorrow? ....work
47. Do you want someone/something you cant have? ....don't think so
48. Are you single? ....no, happily married since may 31, 2008
49. Ever kissed someone who smokes? .....yes, and it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be
50. Have you ever tried your hardest, but got disappointed in the end? ....all the time!
51. Is it hard to get over someone? .....always
52. Have you ever crawled through a window? ....yes. the door was locked!
53. Do you have any text messages that you don't want other people to read? ....no
54. Do you have a good sense of humor?s ....I think so
55. Been grounded a lot when you were a teen? ....grounded from what? I lived on a mountain? They might have takne the van from me, but not grounded.
56. Ever been to a party cops busted? ....yes
57. Who really does the most cheating guys or girls? ....don't know, I bet it's pretty even
58. Who was your last text from? ....probably Jenna
59. When was the last time you went to the hospital and why? ....Sept 2008 for some serious pain in my tummy
60. Who were you last in a car with? .....My mom
61. Do you have reason to smile right now? ....at this second, no, because I'm filling this foolish thing out!
62. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a long conversation with? ....hubby last night
63. What did ya'll talk about? ....baby names and other stuff
64. When was the last time you had Starbucks? ....forever it revs me up too much!
65. Gotten in a car with people you just met? ...not since my "partying" days
66. What is harder,for you to tell someone you're in love with them or that you dont? ....I nver people that I don't like them and no one has liked me that I have not liked in return.
67. Do you like who you are, as a person? ....yes
    

The Count is 6

3 Babies due in March

3 Babies due in April

There is a bit of a baby boom!

Am I Ready

I know that I have mused on this before, but today as I was getting my breakfast ready in my very messy kitchen a thought struck me: Am I really ready for this? Am I sure that I want to go through with this? I answered myself quickly with a yes. My life and priorities would change after a baby, and maybe my kitchen might not get as messy or maybe it would be worse....in any case I think I'm ready. But who's really ready anyway?

Last night Jason says through laughter, "We are trying to have a baby!" I think the thought of being a father terrifies him at times. He's not alone in the boat, being a mom scares me too, but in a good way.

I'm excited. I don't think we'll get pregnant this month, but I think it will be soon. By Christmas with any luck.

Speaking of Christmas. I am so ready for it this year. I have been buying presents since July. My hope is that when Christmas does get here it won't be such a financial strain since most of the shopping is done. All I have left is two swaps (times two people) and two people. This just might be a less financially stressful Holiday!!